Changing my focus and thinking!!!

I had a rough night at work last night. While driving home I replayed everything that I felt went wrong with the night. I felt horrible. Then I heard God say I had a choice to dwell and focus on the night or to choose to move on. I chose to move on after sharing it with my husband. I realized that I learned a lot at work despite it being rough. I decided not to talk about it any longer and that it was in the past. I chose to live in the now and enjoy the rest of my day.

I am so glad I did this and I ended up not missing one of the best moments with my kids. I took them to the park in the late afternoon. We swung on the swings, went down the slide, and had a fruit picnic as we watched a kids soccer practice. Both kids were great, the weather was great, the fruit was great, and I then remembered that life is great!

Transitions in Life...5 things I truly miss about San Diego

1. My Wonderful Friends
It takes time building and keeping relationships. Over the last 10 years in San Diego I have tried my best to stay close and in touch with amazing woman. I miss seeing there wonderful faces, receiving their face to face encouragement, and enjoying their company. I am praying that God will place women of the same standards, character, and love that I had in San Diego in the Bay Area...soon.
2. My Awesome Co-Workers. I really can say that I loved my job in San Diego and the reason I loved it so much is because I love what I do and I was in love with the my fellow nurses that I worked with. 4 years is a nice amount of time to really get to know a group in and outside of work. I am currently the new girl at UCSF. Still learning the ropes and getting to know the nurses up here. They have welcomed me really well but I have such high standards after leaving UCSD medical center.

3. Our Church-The Church that we were attending before we left was just Great in so many ways. Wes and I look for 4 things in a church. 1. Good Word Preached 2. Good Worship 3. Excellent Children's church for JJ 4. Diversity. The Rock had all 4 of these and is a church that serves San Diego in so many ways. We felt very proud to be apart. We have been looking for a church with these qualities since we moved up to the bay area. We think that we might be pretty close to all 4 of our goals in a church but prayerfully waiting on complete confirmation.
4. The Weather- San Diego weather is just perfect. My definitions of perfect weather: Consistancy in its pattern, not to cold, not to hot, sunny, and just beautiful. So far the weather in the Bay Area has been very wet, very cold, and sometimes nice.
5. The City- The city of San Diego is just a melting pot of ethnicity and culture. Everything seems so conviently located in San Diego. It is not real hard to find something adventurous, fun, and entertaining to do in close driving distance. Even though I grew up in the bay area it feels as if I am I still have some figuring out about the different cities within the Bay Area.

2 Things I love about the Bay Area

1.Our Families! Wes and I have both of our families living in the Bay Area. It has been so nice to visit with them everyweek, go to the movies, catch dinner, have superbowl parties, birthday gatherings, and see JJ recieve so much love from them.

2. Making our Marriage Stronger:)Transition in life can be real rough. It is real rough and tough finding new friends, new church, starting and looking for new jobs, Wes beginning his Master's Journey, and coping with all this change at once. Through it all Wes and I have learned how to lean on God 1st and each other 2nd. We have been each-others supporters', encouragers', and it has just been beautiful to see how God has used this transition to bring us closer as BEST FRIENDs. Even when we thought marriage and our friendship was going great it just got greater.

After writing all this I will try to focus on these 2 lovely and wonderful things that the Lord has done through our transition and not focus so much on the other 5 that I miss so much. Who knows maybe in 6-12 months from now my likings of the Bay Area will out number my missed longings of San Diego!?

The Verdict has come in......

I Got The Job!

Had an interview with a Hospital in the Bay Area last week. This job would provide a great opportunity for my career as a Nurse, a great opportunity for our family to move to the bay area to be closer to both of our families, and this will also be a great opportunity for Wes to achieve his goal of returning back to school.
Just got off the phone with the Manger that interviewed me last week. After the interview and speaking with my references they offered me the job! I accepted on the spot.
After getting off the phone Wes and I took some time to Thank God. We know that he truly has our steps ordered. It has been a road of patience and faith. We have been trying to move to the Bay Area for the last 7 months. Now we have about 4 more weeks left in San Diego.

This is bitter but very sweet to us. San Diego is the place where I began my Christian life, began my Nursing Career, I began my marriage, I began my journey of Motherhood, and last but not least learned what true friendships really means from all of my great relationships.

Thank you God for our past in San Diego with Friends and our Future in the Bay Area with Family!

I write this as we are awaiting on a phone call. The phone call is in regards to a great job opportunity that I interviewed for a couple of weeks ago. A job that will place us closer to both of our wonderful families. It is such an emotional roller coaster when you are waiting for something so big to happen. You go through the emotions of being excited because it feels so close at times, then being down when you doubt that it can really happen, and you even start thinking about plan B. As I write this am not 10o% that I will receive this job. In my head I am replaying every word that was said by the manager that interviewed me and analyzing it. What did she really mean when she said that? Was she inferring that the job was mine?Did she not want to be honest with me and tell me she is no longer interested?
Then I hear the great and ultimate voice of my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ: Daughter, Know that no matter what happens with this specific job opportunity I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future(Jer 29:11).So seek first my kingdom and my righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well(Matt6:33). I the LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged(Deut 31:8). I repeat myself do not be afraid or discouraged ..... for the battle is not yours, but mines(2Chron 20:15). Continue to delight yourself in me and I will give you the desires of your heart(psalm 37:4).I will meet all your needs according to my glorious riches in Christ Jesus(Phil 4:19).

My response after hearing the Lord's voice: Lord, I apologize for any doubt or disbelief that has lead me astray from standing on your great and sovereign word. Your hand is totally on my life and my families'. You are the one that is in control and you only have the best in store for me. Though I may plan my ways you ultimately order my steps. I do not know what tomorrow brings but I know that you will be there and that is all that matters. You love me so much, I thank you today for you love. I also thank you in advance for opening this door or I thank you in advance for closing it. I praise you because you are much wiser, smarter, and divine than I will ever understand. There is one thing I totally understand at this exact moment, it is that you are in complete control. There is no one more awesome, magnificent, and perfect than you. I thank and praise you for leading my life in the right direction and I choose to believe that your timing is also so excellent.I love you. Amen